At every step I’m so scared. I’m so scared of everything. I try not to be, I try to embrace each stage and see it for what it is. I try not to look to the future. I’m scared of that too.
I’m scared of hope even though I want to be hopeful. I’m scared of the morning and what it may bring. You see it may be bad news.
I had lovely news from the clinic this morning. Both my eggs were mature. Both my eggs have fertilised. I couldn’t have had better news. I’m scared of being happy. There’s still a very long way to go.